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Suasana malam yang gelap gelita diselangi dengan angin dingin yang sempoi-sempoi bertiup itu bagaikan ketenangan yang tiba, apatah lagi keadaan rumah yang riuh dengan suara-suara manusia yang berborak dan bunyi televisyen yang dihidupkan tadi mulai hilang dan semakin senyap. "Abang nak biarkan bulu ni lagi sebulan, nak tengok macam mana bulunya nanti. Hihihi", taip Farish saat dia sedang bermesej dengan seorang kenalannya melalui aplikasi media sosial Telegram. "Hahaha, betul. Abang biarkan saja, tak payah cukur bulu tu. Adik punya bulu pun sudah setahun tak cukur, hehehe", balas kawan sembangnya itu dengan nama penggunanya "Tuan Whitered". "Baiklah, abang tak cukur bulu zakar abang seperti yang adik Tuan Whitered suruhkan. Yeahhh, sudah pasti abang bertambah seksi nanti". "Hehehe, bagus. Semestinyalah abang akan jadi seksi, kalau abang tak cukur bulu ketiak, mesti lagi terserlah keseksian abang". "Bulu ketiak abang tak lebat pun, adik. Halus-halus je tumbuh, huhu". "Oh, betul ke? Kalau macam tu, tak payahlah cukur. Biarkan saja bulu tu tumbuh dekat situ". "Abang memang tak cukur pun, adik. Lama juga abang tak cukur bulu-bulu ni. Abang tunggu "doktor" Tuan Whitered periksa bulu-bulu zakar abang ini, perlu ataupun tidak untuk cukur sewaktu datang "sunat" nanti. Hehehe", balas Farish sambil dia sedang terbaring bogel di atas katilnya sambil tangan kirinya diletakkan di bawah kepalanya dan terpampanglah ketiaknya yang ditumbuhi oleh bulu-bulu ketiak yang tidak berapa lebat itu. Itulah topik perbualan mereka yang penuh dengan sembang-sembang nakal dan gurau-senda pada malam itu walaupun baru sahaja beberapa hari mereka saling mengenali melalui aplikasi yang sama. Pada masa yang sama, dia juga beberapa kali melihat ke arah gambar tubuh seseorang yang hanya berseluar dalam jenis "tight" berwarna putih jenama Pro Combat sedang berlutut sambil kedua-dua tangan orang itu diangkat ke belakang kepala dengan penuh kesangapan. Tubuh pemuda itu yang sedikit gempal dengan kedua-dua putingnya yang hitam dan agak lebar di samping wajahnya yang comel itu membuatkannya tertarik pada kawan sembangnya itu. Entah kenapa saat melihat diri Tuan Whitered yang bertubuh agak kecil itu membuatkannya terimbas kembali zaman kanak-kanaknya yang polos dan ketika jiwa keremajaannya yang baru mengenal erti sifat seksualnya yang sebenar.

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9 TAHUN

"Pakcik, pakcik, adik nak pergi sana. Jomlah, pakcik", ajak Farish yang ketika itu baru sahaja selesai waktu persekolahan rendahnya itu. Lalu, pakcik itu pun hanya tersenyum padanya sebelum dia memimpin tangan Farish keluar dari pintu pagar sekolah dan berjalan menuju ke kedai runcit berhampiran. "Adik nak apa? Keropok? Mainan? Adik pilihlah, pakcik belanja", kata pakcik itu lalu Farish pun terus mengambil apa-apa yang diingininya itu lalu diletakkan di atas meja kaunter. Saat pakcik itu ingin membayar barang-barang itu, "Terima kasih, pakcik", ucap Farish sambil tersenyum riang padanya. Pakcik itu yang menoleh ke arahnya pun terus tersenyum kepadanya semula. Walaupun ketika itu dia masih kecil dan hal itu sudah lama berlalu, namun Farish masih lagi teringat dengan jelas riak muka pakcik angkatnya pada ketika itu. Seingat Farish ketika itu walaupun kenangan itu agak samar-samar dalam fikirannya kerana dirinya yang masih budak-budak semasa itu, nama pakcik itu ialah Tajul kerana beberapa orang termasuklah ayah dan ibunya memanggil nama itu ketika menyapanya. Tubuh pakcik itu agak berotot walaupun dia berumur dalam lingkungan 30-an dan kelihatan kurus dan berkulit agak sedikit perang gelap kerana ketika itu dia bekerja sebagai tukang bina rumah di sebuah kawasan perumahan berdekatan dengan kampung itu. Malah, rumah tumpangan yang dia duduki ketika itu juga agak dekat dengan rumah keluarga Farish di kampung itu. Ayah Farish dan juga pakcik angkatnya itu selalu lepak bersama sambil menghirup kopi suam di warung makan yang terletak berhampiran di simpang masuk ke kawasan perkampungan itu selepas menunaikan sembahyang Isyak di masjid. Sejak dari itu, keluarganya dan pakcik angkat itu semakin rapat sehinggakan pakcik itu sendiri menawarkan dirinya untuk membantu membawa dan mengambil Farish di sekolah. Malah, dia juga sanggup untuk menjaganya seusai sahaja dia habis bekerja ketika ibu ayah Farish masih lagi bekerja, yang mana kadang-kala terpaksa balik lewat malam. "Adik, jom siap-siap untuk mandi. Sekarang sudah nak malam", kata pakcik angkatnya itu saat mengejutkan Farish dari tidur sejak balik sekolah tadi. Farish yang masih dalam keadaan mamai dan mengantuk itu pun bangkit dan mendekati pakcik itu sebelum lelaki itu menanggalkan baju dan seluar sekolah Farish yang masih dipakainya. 'Fwoshhh' 'fwoshhh' 'fwoshhh', beberapa baldi air dari kolah itu dijiruskan ke atas badan Farish lalu badannya dilumurkan dengan sabun mandi, celah-celah ketiak dan pehanya digosok-gosok dan celahan kelangkangnya dibersihkan sehingga Farish berasa sedikit geli saat celahan bontot dan alat sulitnya itu digosok-gosok oleh pakcik itu. "Zakar adik sudah besar ni, sudah boleh disunatkan", kata pakcik itu sambil memegang dan memeriksa batang kotenya itu. "Adik tak mahu sunat, sakit nanti", balasnya sambil menutup kotenya dengan tangan. "Adik jaga takut, sunat tu tak sakit. Adik anak jantan, bukan?", kata lelaki itu sambil menolak tepi tangan Farish dan sambung membelek-belek zakar anak buah angkatnya itu. Bukan ketika itu sahaja pakcik angkatnya itu buat sebegitu, malah beberapa kali juga alat sulit Farish dipegang dan diraba olehnya. Ada juga pada suatu malam sewaktu ibu dan ayah Farish balik ke rumah lewat dan dia terpaksa dijaga di rumah pakciknya itu. Sebelum dia ingin tidur, pakciknya membuka seluar Farish dan memegang-megang batang kotenya dan beberapa kali memicit dan menarik lemah kulup zakarnya dengan alasan ingin melihat sama ada zakarnya itu "buta" ataupun tidak, sehingga membuatkan Farish berasa geli sebelum dia dibaringkan dan ditidurkan di dalam pelukan pakcik itu di ruang tamu rumahnya sehinggalah ibu Farish tiba. Pada waktu itu, dia hanya seorang kanak-kanak lelaki yang suka bermain-main dan langsung tak merasa pelik akan perbuatan pakciknya itu dan hanya berfikir dia ingin bergurau sahaja. Namun, jodoh pertemuannya dengan pakcik angkatnya itu tidak kekal lama saat hari sunatnya sehinggalah waktu pantang sunatnya selesai, namun tiada langsung sosok tubuh pakcik datang menjumpainya. Setelah beberapa hari, barulah Farish tahu bahawa pakcik angkatnya tidak lagi bekerja di situ dan sudah bertolak pulang ke negeri kelahirannya, iaitu Selangor beberapa hari sebelum Farish disunatkan pada hari itu.

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15 TAHUN

'Kringgg', bunyi loceng berbunyi menandakan sesi persekolahan ketika itu sudah pun tamat. Para pelajar pun mulai berbondong-bondong keluar dari kelas masing-masing menuju ke pintu pagar utama, manakala pelajar-pelajar yang duduk di asrama pula kembali ke dewan makan untuk santapan tengah hari. Namun, Farish pula bergegas ke kantin sekolah sambil membawa beberapa beg plastik setelah selesai menunaikan sembahyang di surau. "Wah, awalnya sampai. Rajin betul kau ni, hahaha", tegur seseorang dari belakang, membuatkan Farish sedikit terkejut dan hampir tersedak makanan tengah hari yang sedang dikunyahnya itu. "Eh, abang. Terkejut adik, nasiblah adik tak tercekik. Hahaha", balas Farish sambil mengesat sisa makanan yang ada di bibirnya. Abang Khushairi Afendy merupakan salah seorang pelajar senior Tingkatan Enam di sekolah itu. Dia bukan sahaja ketua bagi Persatuan Bulan Sabit Merah di sekolah kami pada tahun itu, malah dia juga sangat aktif bersukan sehingga berjaya mewakili sekolah beberapa kali dalam pertandingan bola sepak dan juga seorang atlet dalam sukan larian. Oleh sebab itulah tubuh badannya nampak tegap dan berotot selain berkulit sawo matang dan mulanya yang kacak dan matang itu sehingga diminati oleh pelajar-pelajar perempuan di sekolah itu. Tidak terkecuali juga untuk Farish yang mulai menyukai abang seniornya itu sejak pertama kali dia dilantik menjadi salah seorang ahli jawatankuasa (AJK) dalam persatuan itu oleh abang itu sendiri. Farish juga teringat ketika bulan Februari pada tahun itu juga ketika mereka dan beberapa AJK lain sedang sibuk menyiapkan tugasan untuk pertandingan Kain Rentang peringkat sekolah ketika itu. Tiba-tiba senior itu datang dan duduk di kerusi yang berhadapan dengan Farish di kantin itu dan memerhatikannya menyiapkan bahagian tugasnya itu. "Bagus kerja adik, nampak kemas dan cantik", kata abang itu lalu dibalas dengan senyuman dari Farish. "Abang nak tanya sedikit, adik tahu mengenai sistem Abang-Adik Angkat?", soal seniornya itu lalu dibalas dengan anggukkan kepala Farish sambil berkata, "Oh, pasal itu. Adik tahu". "Abang cuma nak cakap, kawan-kawan abang semua dah ada adik angkat, abang seorang je yang tiada lagi. Jadi..., adik nak jadi adik angkat abang tak?, pertanyaan dari seniornya itu membuatkan Farish terpaku dan terus menatap ke arah seniornya itu. "Oh, erkkk.... Ke... kenapa adik?", soalnya yang masih terkejut itu. "Kitakan dah agak lama kenal, kelakuan adik pun abang dah kenal sangat. Jadi, abang nak adik jadi adik angkat abang mulai sekarang. Adik setuju ataupun tidak, adik tetap jadi adik angkat aku, okay?", balas senior itu dengan nada suruhan. Farish yang terkejut dengan kata-kata itu pun bersetuju tanpa berfikir panjang, risau dirinya akan dipukul oleh abang-abang senior di situ, apatah lagi sekolah itu agak terkenal dengan kes buli. Senior itu terus tersenyum setelah mendengar kata-kata adik angkatnya itu lalu dia mengusap-usap rambut Farish sebelum berlalu pergi dari situ. Sejak dari itu, hubungan antara Farish dan abang angkatnya itu semakin rapat dan mereka juga beberapa kali melakukan tugasan persatuan bersama-sama sewaktu sesi kokurikulum pada sebelah petang di sekolah mereka itu. Malah, dia juga sudah tidak lagi diganggu oleh senior-senior lain, sepertinya dia sudah dilindungi oleh abang angkatnya itu.

Sebulan sudah pun berlalu sejak tamatnya Hari Kokurikulum sekolah mereka itu dan diri Farish juga sah menjadi adik angkat abang seniornya itu. Setelah selesai sahaja sesi persekolahan, abang angkat mengajak Farish untuk lepak di kantin seperti selalunya dengan makanan dan minuman untuk tengah hari mereka juga dibelanja oleh senior itu. "Macam mana pembelajaran adik untuk Peperiksaan Menengah Rendah (PMR) nanti?", soal senior itu sambil menjamah nasi ayam ketika itu. "Pembelajaran adik masih okay lagi walaupun markah masih lagi tak capai sasaran, huhuhu", balas Farish sambil mulutnya mengunyah-ngunyah makanan itu. "Oh yeke? Jangan risau, nanti abang cuba tolong adik. Abang nak adik cemerlang nanti, okay?", kata senior lagi dan Farish tersenyum dan menganggukkan kepalanya. "Abang dah lama nak tanya, adik ni suka jantan ke?", pertanyaan itu membuatkan Farish tersedak-sedak makanan yang dikunyahnya itu sebelum dia terus meneguk air mineral yang ada di situ. Farish teragak-agak untuk menjawabnya sebelum senior itu berkat lagi, "Jangan takut, kalau adik gay pun, abang bukannya nak marah". Dengan perasaan teragak-agak, Farish pun mengangguk-anggukkan sedikit kepalanya sebelum senior itu tersenyum lalu berkata, "Oh, faham. Baguslah, abang pun dah lama tahu adik suka zakar. Cuma hari ini je abang nak dapatkan kepastian". Lalu, suasana pada petang itu terasa janggal dengan masing-masing terdiam sejenak sebelum abang senior itu berkata lagi sehingga membuatkan Farish sedikit membeliakkan matanya, "Abang pun suka jantan juga". Farish menatap ke arah abang angkatnya itu dengan pandangan terkejut. "Kenapa? Tak percaya? Adik rasa kenapa abang pilih adik untuk jadi adik angkat abang? Sebab abang tahu kita berdua homo dan suka jantan. Adik jangan risaulah, kita berdua je yang tahu rahsia kita ni", katanya lagi sambil mengusap-usap rambut Farish. Farish hanya tersenyum sambil dirinya masih lagi terpinga-pinga akan kata-kata abang angkatnya tadi. Sejak dari hari itu, Farish dan abang angkatnya semakin rapat seakan-akan rapatnya adik-beradik. Malah, abang angkatnya semakin kerap lepak makan bersama-samanya sewaktu rehat dan juga setelah selesai sesi persekolahan dan kadang-kala Farish juga datang dan menyokong dan bersorak pada abang angkatnya di padang sewaktu perlawanan bola sepak yang diadakan di sekolah itu. Sewaktu PMR semakin hampir, beberapa kali abang angkatnya mengajak Farish untuk bermalam di asrama setiap kali biliknya kosong supaya senior itu boleh memberi tunjuk ajar kepada adik angkatnya itu tentang mana-mana mata pelajaran yang Farish masih lagi kurang faham. Malah, senior itu hanya mengenakan seluar dalam jenis boxer berbutang dan terpampanglah tubuhnya yang sedikit kurus dan berotot sehinggakan fokus Farish mulai sedikit terganggu setiap kali dia mengulang kaji pelajaran di bilik abang angkatnya itu. Kadang-kala, abang angkatnya itu duduk di sebelah Farish sambil memegang tangan dan juga merangkul bahunya sambil mengajarnya pada malam itu. Bukan itu sahaja, dia juga akan memeluk tubuh Farish dari belakang sambil mencium-cium leher dan dahinya beberapa kali, membuatkan zakar Farish mulai berdenyut-denyut. Itu belum lagi sewaktu mereka ingin tidur dengan kedua-duanya akan berbaring mengirimg ke kanan bersama di atas katil abang angkatnya itu lalu senior itu menyeluk celah ketiaknya dan memeluk tubuh, manakala kakinya diangkat dan merangkul kaki Farish dan badan adik angkat itu dipeluk erat sehinggalah kedua-duanya terlena.

Teringat lagi sewaktu kertas peperiksaan mata pelajaran terakhir baru sahaja tamat pada petang Jumaat dan kesemua pelajar Tingkatan Tiga mulai riuh-rendah keluar dari dewan peperiksaan sambil menghela nafas lega. Termasuklah Farish yang sedang rancak berborak-borak dengan kawan-kawan sekelasnya itu sehingga dia tak perasan yang abang angkatnya sudah pun menunggunya di pondok berhampiran. "Eh, abang. Abang buat apa di sini?", soal Farish setelah kawannya tadi pergi meninggalkan mereka berdua. "Buat apa lagi? Tunggu adik abang habis ujianlah, hahaha. Jom kita pergi makan petang bersama-sama, adik mesti lapar", balas abang angkatnya lalu mereka pun terus menaiki motorsikal milik senior itu dan memecut keluar dari sekolah itu. "Sekarang adik dah lapang, bukan? Jom malam ni kita lepak dekat bilik abang, sudah lama abang tak gomol-gomol kesayangan abang ni", ajak senior itu ketika mereka sedang menjamah pisang goreng di sebuah warung. "Oh, boleh ke? Tapi sekarang PMR sudah habis, nanti apa pula kata ibu dan ayah adik nanti", jawabnya dengan teruja pada awalnya sebelum nadanya mulai perlahan semula. "Alahai, masalah macam tu pun abang nak selesaikan untuk adik ke? Mengada-ngada betul dia ni, hehehe", kata senior itu sambil dia mengangkat kakinya lalu memijak-mijak lembut celah kelangkang Farish sehingga dia sedikit terangsang dan zakarnya mulai berdenyut sambil dia tersenyum malu pada abang angkatnya itu. Lalu, pada malam itu senior itu pun mengambil Farish dari rumahnya dan membawanya ke asrama. Suasana asrama itu agak sunyi kerana beberapa pelajar, terutama sekali pelajar Tingkatan Tiga yang sudah pulang ke rumah. "Malam ni kita makan malam sambil layan filem, okay?", kata senior itu sambil dia menutup dan mengunci bilik itu. Terdapat sebuah komputer riba yang beralaskan sebuah kotak kosong dan juga dua bungkus makanan dan air di atas katil abang angkatnya itu. "Jom kita makan, abang dah lapar ni. Adik buka baju tu dulu", kata senior itu lagi setelah dia menanggalkan baju dan seluarnya dan hanya berseluar dalam "boxer" berbutang dan bercorak segi empat. Farish pun turuti sahaja kata-kata abang angkatnya itu lalu satu demi satu pakainnya ditanggalkan dan hanya berseluar dalam jenis "boxer" yang bercorak sama seperti senior itu, hanya warnanya sahaja yang berbeza. Setelah diajak untuk duduk di atas katil itu, Farish pun mendekatinya sambil tangannya menutup bonjolan zakarnya yang mulai tegang itu. "Kenapa tutup tu? Adik macam tak biasa pula dengan abang. Cepat duduk dekat sini", kata senior itu yang sudah pun duduk bersandar pada kepala katil dan kakinya terkangkang sambil menepuk-nepuk lembut bahagian katil di depan celah kangkangnya. Farish pun terus turuti sahaja arahan dari senior itu lalu perlahan-lahan dia naik ke atas tilam dan duduk jauh sedikit, dalam jarak sejengkal di depan celah kangkang senior itu menghadap ke arah komputer riba dan membelakangi abang angkatnya itu. "Kenapa nak duduk jauh? Meh sini duduk rapat-rapat dengan abang angkat kau ni", kata senior itu lalu tangannya menyeluk celahan ketiak dan memegang dada Farish lalu menarik tubuhnya ke belakang sehingga belakang tubuh Farish rapat ke dada dan perut senior itu, apatah lagi bontotnya juga merasai bonjolan alat sulit di sebalik seluar dalam senior itu.

Setelah mereka sudah selesai makan, bekas makanan itu diletakkan di bawah katil sebelum mereka duduk semula di atas tilam dan menyambung tonton lagi filem tadi sambil tubuh Farish dipeluk erat oleh senior itu dari arah belakang sehingga dia tersandar ke tubuhnya. Bukan itu sahaja, abang angkatnya itu juga mulai meramas-ramas dada Farish yang agak kurus itu, menggentel-gentel kedua-dua putingnya yang sudah membonjol ke depan dan mengusap-usap perutnya yang kembang-kempis bernafas itu. "Seronok ya badan adik kena raba sampaikan zakar adik semakin tegang dekat dalam seluar tu, hehehe", kata senior itu saat tangannya tergesel-gesel dengan kote Farish saat mengusap-usap bawah pusatnya dan Farish pun hanya tergelak lembut sambil beberapa kali dia mendesah-desah kecil. "Adik, abang ada satu tugasan untuk adik malam ni. Tapi adik kena janji yang adik wajib buat kalau nak tahu tugasan itu", kata senior itu lagi. Farish mulai tertanya-tanya dan cuba cari tahu tugasan itu, namun senior itu langsung tak mengendahkan soalan adik angkatnya itu. "Baiklah, adik akan buat tugasan itu. Apa tugasan itu, abang?", Farish bersetuju lalu senior itu tersenyum dan berkata, " Malam ini abang nak bagi satu hadiah yang pasti adik mahu. Nanti abang tunjuk, adik pasti tahu nak buat apa dengan hadiah itu". Lalu, Farish memusingkan tubuhnya menghadap ke arah senior sambil berlutut di antara peha senior itu. Satu demi satu butang seluar dalam senior itu dibuka sebelum tangan kiri senior itu menyeluk ke dalam seluar dalam lalu menarik keluar batang zakarnya yang sudah tegang dan keras melalui lubang butang tadi. Farish sangat terkejut lalu memandang wajah abang angkatnya yang kemudian mengangguk kecil ke arahnya. Lalu, tangan kiri Farish mulai memegang batang zakar itu dan mulai mengusap-usapnya dari pangkal sehingga ke kepala itu sehinggakan tapak tangannya terasa denyutan-denyutan urat yang kencang pada batang zakar itu. "Orghhh urghhh, sedapnya", desah senior itu setiap kali tapak tangan Farish bergesel dengan takuk kepala zakarnya yang sensitif itu. Setelah itu, Farish mulai menundukkan kepalanya ke arah batang kote itu lalu lidahnya yang dijelirkan itu mulai menjilat-jilat kepala zakar, lubang kote dan juga lekukkan takuk pada alat sulit abang angkatnya itu. 'Slurppp' 'slurppp' 'slurppp' "Orghmmm", setelah puas memain-mainkan lidahnya ke seluruh zakar senior itu, Farish mulai memasukkan alat sulit itu ke dalam rongganya sehingga mulutnya terasa tegang kerana zakar yang tebal dan panjang itu. Koloman demi koloman Farish lakukan pada batang kote abang angkatnya itu semakin lama semakin laju dan beberapa kali dindng kerongkongnya dihentak dengan hujung zakar itu, membuatkannya hampir termuntah beberapa kali. Tidak dengan itu, senior itu juga memegang dan menekan kepala Farish dengan lebih rapat ke celahan kelangkangnya itu sehingga membuatkan kerongkongnya dijolok oleh zakar abang angkatnya dan air liurnya mulai mengalir keluar dari mulutnya. Farish cuba menolak-nolak badan senior itu, namun tak berdaya dan air matanya mulai bergelinangan kerana tekaknya terasa tercekik. "Orghhh uhukkk uhukkk", Farish terbatuk-batuk dengan air liurnya masih lagi menitis ke celah kangkang senior itu sebelum seniornya melepaskan kepala Farish semula.

Namun belum sempat Farish menarik nafas panjang, rambutnya digenggam dan mulutnya dijolok lagi dengan zakar senior itu berulang-ulang kali secara paksa. "Orghhh orghhh yeahhh, orghhh yeahhh. Orghhh orghhh, abang nak pancut. Abang nak pancut, erghhh", desah abang angkatnya yang hampir mencapai kemuncak kesangapannya. Lalu, kepala Farish ditekan lagi ke celahan kangkang senior itu sehingga rongga mulutnya dipenuhi dengan batang kote itu lalu, 'Crottt' 'crottt' 'crottt', air -air maninya yang masih hangat itu memancut-mancut terus ke dalam kerongkong Farish ketika itu. "Orghhh yeahhhh, fuhhh. Leganya abang malam ni", kata senior itu setelah mengeluarkan zakarnya itu dari mulut adik angkatnya yang tersedak-sedak itu. Lalu, senior itu memegang dagu Farish sehingga dia menatap ke arahnya dan jari-jemarinya mulai mengesat air mata adik angkatnya itu. "Alahai, kasihannya adik angkat kesayangan abang ni", katanya lalu dia terus memeluk Farish dengan sangat erat dan Farish pun terus membalas pelukan itu sambil senyuman terukir di bibirnya. Namun, pertemuan mereka tidak kekal lama. Walaupun abang angkatnya itu sudah tidak lagi belajar di situ sehinggalah dia sudah pun mendirikan rumah tangga, mereka masih lagi saling berhubungan walaupun tidak lagi senakal dahulu. Itulah kenangan kali pertama buat Farish dapat merasai batang zakar di dalam mulutnya, apatah lagi alat sulit itu datangnya dari seseorang yang dia pertama kali meminati diri lelaki itu sejak kali pertama pertemuan dengannya. Sejak dari itu, rasa cintanya pada lelaki semakin kuat walaupun keinginannya itu bertentangan dengan cara hidup masyarakatnya ketika itu.

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The pitch-black night atmosphere interspersed with the cool breeze that had arrived, not to mention the noisy house with the voices of people chatting and the sound of the television that had been turned on had begun to disappear and become quieter. "I want to leave this hair for another month, I want to see how it will be. Hihihi", Farish typed while he was messaging an acquaintance via the social media application Telegram. "Hahaha, that is nice. You just leave it, there's no need to shave it. I haven't shaved my hair for a year, hehehe", replied his chat buddy with his username "Mr. Whitered". "Okay, I didn't shave my penis hair like Mr. Whitered's told me to. Yeahhh, I'm sure I'll get sexier later". "Hehehe, good. I'm sure you'll be sexy, if you don't shave your armpit hair, your sexiness will definitely be more awesome". "My armpit hair isn't even thick, brother. It just grows a few hairs, huhu". "Oh, really? If that's the case, there's no need to shave. Just let the hair grow there". "I don't even shave, brother. It's been a long time since I shaved this hair. I'm waiting for "doctor" Tuan Whitered to check my penis hair, whether or not it needs to be shaved when I come for the "circumcision". Hehehe", replied Farish as he was lying naked on his bed with his left hand placed under his head and his armpit covered by the not-so-thick armpit hair was visible. That was the topic of their conversation which was full of naughty chats and jokes that night even though they had only known each other for a few days through the same application. At the same time, he also looked several times at the picture of that person wearing only white "tight" underwear from the Pro Combat brand, kneeling while both of the person's hands were raised behind his head with full of enthusiasm. The young man's slightly plump body with his two black and rather wide nipples, alongside his cute face, made him attracted to his chat partner. For some reason, seeing Mr. Whitered's rather small body reminded him of his innocent childhood and the time when his youthful soul had just come to know the true meaning of its sexual nature.

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9 YEARS OLD

"Uncle, uncle, I want to go there. Come on, uncle", invited Farish who had just finished his primary schooling at that time. Then, the uncle just smiled at him before leading Farish's hand out of the school gate and walking towards the nearby grocery store. "What do you want? Crackers? Toys? You choose, its my treat", said the uncle and Farish continued to take whatever he wanted and placed it on the counter. When the uncle wanted to pay for the items, "Thank you, uncle", said Farish while smiling happily at him. The uncle who turned towards him continued to smile at him again. Even though he was still a child at that time and that had been a long time ago, Farish still clearly remembered the expression on his adoptive uncle's face at that time. As Farish remembered at that time, although the memory was a bit vague in his mind because he was still a child at that time, the uncle's name was Tajul because several people including his father and mother called him that name when greeting him. The uncle's body was quite muscular even though he was in his 30s and looked thin and had a slightly dark tan skin because at that time he was working as a house builder in a housing area near the village. In fact, the boarding house he was staying in at that time was also quite close to Farish's family home in the village. Farish's father and his adoptive uncle always hung out together while sipping warm coffee at the food stall located nearby at the entrance to the village area after performing Isyak prayers at the mosque. Since then, the family and the adoptive uncle have become closer to the point that the uncle himself offered to help take and pick up Farish from school. In fact, he was also willing to take care of him after he finished work while Farish's parents were still at work, which sometimes meant they had to come home late at night. "Little boy, let's get ready to take a shower. It's getting late now", said his adoptive uncle when he woke Farish from sleeping since he came back from school. Farish, who was still in a sleepy and tired state, got up and approached the uncle before the man took off Farish's school shirt and pants that he was still wearing. 'Fwoshhh' 'fwoshhh' 'fwoshhh', several buckets of water were poured over Farish's body and then his body was smeared with bath soap, his armpits and thighs were rubbed and his crotch was cleaned until Farish felt a little tickled as the uncle rubbed his ass and private parts. "Your penis is big now, it can be circumcised," said the uncle as he held and examined the shaft of Farish's cock. "I don't want to be circumcised, it gonna hurt," he replied as he covered his cock with his hand. "Don't be afraid, circumcision doesn't hurt. You're a boy, right?", said the man as he pushed away Farish's hand and continued to look around at his adopted son's penis. Not only that time his adoptive uncle did that, but several times he also held and groped Farish's private parts. There was also one night when Farish's mother and father returned home late and he had to be looked after at his uncle's house. Before he wanted to sleep, his uncle opened Farish's pants and held his cock and squeezed and pulled the foreskin of his penis several times on the pretext of wanting to see whether his penis was "blind" or not, which made Farish feel tickled before he was laid down and put to sleep in his uncle's arms in the living room of his house until Farish's mother arrived. At that time, he was just a boy who liked to play and did not feel strange about his uncle's actions at all and only thought he only wanted to joke. However, his meeting with his adoptive uncle did not last long, from the day of his circumcision until the time of his circumcision abstinence was over, but no sign of his uncle's body came to meet him. After a few days, Farish found out that his adoptive uncle was no longer working there and had left to return to his birthplace, Selangor, a few days before Farish was circumcised that day.

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15 YEAR OLD

'Kringgg', the sound of the bell rang, indicating that the school session had ended. The students began to flock out of their respective classes towards the main gate, while the students who were sitting in the dormitory returned to the dining hall for lunch. However, Farish rushed to the school canteen carrying several plastic bags after finishing his prayers at the surau. "Wow, you arrived early. You're really diligent, hahaha", someone said from behind, making Farish a little surprised and almost choked on the lunch he was chewing. "Eh, brother. I'm surprised, luckily I didn't choke. Hahaha", Farish replied while wiping the leftover food from his lips. The brother named Khushairi Afendy was one of the senior Form Six students at the school. He was not only the leader of the Red Crescent Society at our school that year, but he was also very active in sports, successfully representing the school several times in football competitions and was also an athlete in running. That's why his body looked strong and muscular, besides having a tanned skin and initially being handsome and mature, so that the female students at the school were interested in him. Farish was no exception, who began to like his senior brother since he was first appointed as one of the committee members (AJK) in the association by the brother himself. Farish also remembered in February of that year when they and several other committee members were busy preparing assignments for the school-level Club Banner competition at that time. Suddenly the senior came and sat in the chair facing him in the canteen and watched him complete his part of the assignment. "Good job, brother, your work looks neat and pretty", said the brother and was answered with a smile from Farish. "I want to ask you a little, do you know about the Step-Brother system?", asked the senior, which was answered by Farish nodding his head while saying, "Oh, about that. I know". "I just want to say, all my friends have adopted their step-brothers, only I am the only one who is not having it yet. So..., do you want to be my step brother?", the question from his senior made Farish freeze and he kept staring at his senior. "Oh, erkk.... What... why, me?", he asked, still surprised. "We've known each other for quite some time, I'm very familiar with your behavior. So, I want you to be my step-bro from now on. Whether you agree or not, you will still be mine, okay?", replied the senior in an orderly tone. Farish, who was surprised by those words, agreed without thinking twice, worried that he would be beaten by the senior brothers there, not to mention that the school was quite famous for bullying cases. The senior continued to smile after hearing his words and stroked Farish's hair before walking away. Since then, the relationship between Farish and his adopted brother has grown closer and they have also done association assignments together several times during the co-curricular session in the afternoon at their school. In fact, he is no longer bothered by other seniors, it seems that he has been protected by his step-bro.

A month had passed since the end of their school's Co-Curricular Day and Farish had officially become his senior brother's step-bro. After the school session was over, his step-bro invited Farish to hang out in the canteen as usual with food and drinks for their lunch also bought by the senior. "How is your studying for the Junior Secondary Examination (PMR)?", the senior asked while eating chicken rice at that time. "It is still okay even though my marks are still not up to target, huhuhu", Farish replied while chewing his food. "Oh yeah? Don't worry, I'll try to help you later. I want you to excel too, okay?", the senior said again and Farish smiled and nodded his head. "I've been wanting to ask you for a long time, do you like men?", the question made Farish choke on the food he was chewing before he continued to sip the mineral water that was there. Farish hesitated to answer before the senior said again, "Don't be afraid, even if you're gay, I'm not angry". Feeling hesitant, Farish nodded his head slightly before the senior smiled and said, "Oh, I understand. That's good, I've known for a long time that you like penises. I just want to be sure today". Then, the atmosphere that evening felt awkward with each of them being silent for a moment before the senior said again, which made Farish's eyes widen a little, "I like men too". Farish stared at his step-bro with a surprised look. "Why? Don't believe me? Why do you think I chose you to be my step-bro Because I know we're both gay and like men. Don't worry, we're the only ones who know our secret", he said again while stroking Farish's hair. Farish just smiled while still stunned by his step-bro's words earlier. Since that day, Farish and his step-bro had become closer, as if they were siblings. In fact, his step-bro increasingly hung out with him during breaks and after school, and sometimes Farish would also come and support and cheer for him on the field during football matches held at the school. As the PMR was getting closer, several times his step-bro invited Farish to stay overnight in the dormitory whenever his room was empty so that the senior could tutor him on any subjects that Farish still didn't understand. In fact, the senior only wore buttoned boxer-type underwear and showed off his slightly skinny and muscular body to the point that Farish's focus began to be slightly disturbed whenever he revised his studies in his step-bro's room. Sometimes, his step-bro would sit next to Farish, holding his hand and also putting his arm around his shoulders while teaching him that night. Not only that, he would also hug Farish from behind while kissing his neck and forehead several times, making Farish's penis start to throb. Even when they wanted to sleep, both of them would lie down together on his step-bro's bed, the senior would tuck his armpits in and hug his body, while his legs would be lifted and wrap it around Farish's legs and the step-bro's body would be hugged tightly until they both fell asleep.

He remember when the final subject exam papers had just ended on Friday evening and all the Form Three students started to come out of the exam hall with a sigh of relief. Including Farish who was busy chatting with his classmates until he didn't notice that his step-bro was already waiting for him in the hut nearby. "Eh, brother. What are you doing here?", Farish asked after his friend had left the two of them. "What else aam I doing? Wait for you to finish the exam, hahaha. Let's go have a meal together, you must be hungry", replied his step-bro and they immediately got on the senior's motorcycle and sped out of the school. "Now you're free, right? Let's hang out at my room tonight, it's been a long time since Ithe last time you come to my room", invited the senior while they were eating fried bananas at a stall. "Oh, can I? But now that the PMR is over, what will my mother and father say later", he answered excitedly at first before his tone began to slow down again. "Oh my, do you even want me to solve that kind of problem? Hehehe", said the senior as he lifted his foot and gently stepped on Farish's crotch until he was a little aroused and his penis started to throb as he smiled shyly at his step-bro. Then, that night, the senior took Farish from his house and took him to the dormitory. The dormitory was quite quiet because several students, especially Form Three students, had already gone home. "Tonight we'll have dinner while watching a movie, okay?", said the senior as he closed and locked the room. There was a laptop on an empty box and two packs of food and water on his step-bro's bed. "Let's eat, I'm hungry. Take off your shirt first", said the senior again after he took off his shirt and pants and was only wearing buttoned and rectangular design pattern on boxer shorts. Farish just followed his step-bro's words and one by one his clothes were taken off and he was only wearing boxer-type underwear with the same pattern as the senior, only the color was different. After being invited to sit on the bed, Farish approached him with his hand covering the bulge of his penis which was starting to tense. "Why are you covering it? You used to be to it. Hurry up and sit here", said the senior who was already sitting leaning against the headboard's bed and his legs widespread while gently patting the bed in front of his crotch. Farish just followed the senior's instructions and slowly climbed onto the mattress and sat a little further away, a few inches length gap from his step-bro crotch. "Why do you want to sit far away? Come here and sit close to me," said the senior, then his hand went between Farish's armpits and held Farish's chest, then pulled his body back until Farish's back was close to the senior's chest and stomach, not to mention his ass also felt the bulge of his private parts behind the senior's underwear.

After they finished eating, the food container was placed under the bed before they sat back down on the mattress and continued watching the movie while Farish's body was hugged tightly by the senior from behind until he leaned against his body. Not only that, his step-bro also began to squeeze Farish's rather thin chest, fondling both of his nipples that were already bulging forward and stroking his stomach that was breathing heavily. "It's nice to feel your body and feel your penis getting tighter in your pants, hehehe", said the senior as his hand rubbed against Farish's lower belly as he stroked his navel and Farish just laughed softly while he sighed a few times. "Farish, I have an assignment for you tonight. But you have to make a promise that you must do if you want to know the assignment", said the senior again. Farish began to wonder and tried to find out what the assignment was, but the senior completely ignored his step-bro's questions. "Okay, I will do the task. What is the task, brother?", Farish agreed and the senior smiled and said, "Tonight I want to give you a gift that you will definitely want. Later I will show you, you will definitely know what to do with the gift". Then, Farish turned his body to face the senior while kneeling between the senior's thighs. One by one the buttons of the senior's underwear were opened before the senior's left hand reached into the underwear and pulled out his erect and hard penis through the button hole. Farish was very surprised and looked at his step-bro's face who then nodded slightly towards him. Then, Farish's left hand began to hold the penis and began to stroke it from the base to the head until his palm felt the strong pulsations of the veins on the penis. "Orghhh urghhh, it's good", the senior sighed every time Farish's palm rubbed against the sensitive notch of the head of his penis. After that, Farish started to lower his head towards the cock and his tongue that was being stretched out began to lick the head of the penis, the hole of the cock and also the indentation of the notch on his step-bro's private parts. 'Slurppp' 'slurppp' 'slurppp' "Orghmmm", after being satisfied with playing with his tongue all over the senior's penis, Farish started to insert the private parts into his cavity until his mouth felt tense because of the thick and long penis. Blowjob after blowjob Farish did on his step-bro's cock the longer and faster and several times the wall of his throat was hit by the tip of the penis, making him almost vomit several times. Not with that, the senior also held and pressed Farish's head more tightly to the gap of his crotch until his throat was stuffed by his step-bro's penis and his saliva began to flow out of his mouth. Farish tried to push the senior's body away, but was helpless and tears began to flow because his throat felt choked. "Orghhh uhukkk uhukkk", Farish coughed with his saliva still dripping into the senior's crotch before the senior let go of his head again.

But before Farish could take a deep breath, his hair was grabbed and his mouth was repeatedly forcibly penetrated by the senior's penis. "Orghhh orghhh yeahhh, orghhh yeahhh. Orghhh orghhh, I want to cum. I want to cum, erghhh", his step-bro sighed as he almost reached the peak of his orgasm. Then, Farish's head was pressed again into the senior's crotch until his mouth was filled with the cock and, 'Crottt' 'crottt' 'crottt', his still warm semen gushed straight into Farish's throat at that time. "Orghhh yeahhhh, fuhhh. What a relief, brother in this tonight", said the senior after removing his penis from his choking step-bro's mouth. Then, the senior held Farish's chin until he looked at him and his fingers began to wipe away his step-bro's tears. "Oh my, what a pity for my beloved step-bro", he said and then continued to hug Farish very tightly and Farish continued to hug back with a smile etched on his lips. However, their meeting did not last long. Even though his step-bro was no longer studying there until he had already married, they still kept in touch although not as often as before. That was the first memory for Farish on tasting a penis in his mouth, not to mention that the private parts came from someone he had first been in love since the first time he met him. Since then, his love for men has grown stronger even though his desire was against the way of life of his society at that time.

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